Pole Sana

I've decided to remove this blog because I fear that I was expressing myself out of some anger and frusturation I felt at the time, rather than expressing well thought out words or observations. The internet went out just after I posted it (imagine that) and I didn't have a chance to edit it or read back through it until now. The things I wrote in it were weighing on my mind and heart heavily, and I didn't have a sense of peace about how I expressed myself. I was a little cold in that moment and I feel I expressed myself as such. I also fear that I may have offended people reading this, and that wasn't my intention. It was an inner frustration with the way I see myself conducting my own life that I was trying to convey, but how I feel my life should be conducted or how I feel God prompting me to lead my life is not going to be the same as it is for anyone else. In fact, I often need to remind myself that we all play different roles in this world and that with the right heart and the right motivation, all of these roles can work together for a common purpose.
I appologize if you found my words condeming in any way in my previous entry. This is an experience that I know will change my life and the way I view myself, the world, and the role I play in the world, but it is not for me to try and tell anyone else how they should think or conduct themselves. It would be unreasonable for me to think that through this emotionally and observationally driven experience that I can transform other people's lives and world views. I certainly do believe that the opportunity to see the world is the greatest classroom, and I would encourage everyone to take hold of opportunities like this one. But I must remember that everyone is going to come away from an experience like this with something different and everyone will be affected/changed in his or her own way. More importantly, I can't expect other people who are not sharing in this experience to be able to empathize with me in the capacity I wish that they could. In the future I hope to share with you my experiences and observations in a more objective manner, and keep my opinions in a separate place where I can use them to reflect on my own life and my own world view.
Please accept my applogy if I offended you and know that my anger is more self-directed than anything else. To all of you who are official followers of my blog, I care about all of you very much and appreciate you sharing my my experience.